I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

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Tuesday, July 07, 2009 || 11:20 AM

i don't know what happen to me again.
it's the first time i'm blogging about how i feel after 4 months ba.

2 days ago you ask me to see wat date it is.
060709. of course i know what date it is.
just that maybe i let myself lost track of date.
if we didnt break, 2 day ago will be our 1 year 10 month anniversary.
so sad huh?

you're my longest stead & i'm yours too so far.
time really past too quickly.
i waited for you for 1 year plus, stead with you for 1 year plus.
3 years just pass like that. there's really too much memories this 3 years.
from the day i know you at bugis & till i day i broke up with you.
every place just seems to have memories here and there.

still remember the first time i met you alone was at monfort mac.
you fold me a straw star & you told me to keep it. it's still in my drawer.
everything you gave me is in a box. &i don't want to open it.
sometime before falling asleep, i will think of the times we had together.
HA! but thats all memories.

every little here and there makes up to be one huge memories.
if were to say, your house will be the place that contain most ba.
we will sleep together, wake up to cook, watch tv until i fall asleep,
play poker & you even help me with my make up.
every small little bit of what you do always stay in my heart.

the days when i can't sleep you will sing to me,
the days when i'm hungry you will cook for me,
the days when i'm bored you will entertain me,
the days when i cry you will be there for me,
you are always there for me when i needed you.

you make me the happiest girl ever last time &
you make me the unhappiest girl now.
if there's a kind of illness that wont heal in this world, it would be love.
people say time can heal, forget away the pain.
maybe it didnt work on me or maybe, you left those memories too deep.

we used to promise each other alot of thing,
but i think none came true. all left was empty promises.
i told qianhui just now, i miss you &i really do.
but no matter what, time wont turn back & life will still continue.
maybe my heart for you wont die yet & maybe maybe.....

可惜你不在
这一次我要把长发弄乱反正天再冷躲不进你的胸怀
推开了你的手泪流满腮不怕你嘲弄不怕你冷漠此刻只想要耍赖
这一夜最好先说出good bye 戏拖得太久傻女生也会学乖
喝不下这杯酒苦涩来得好快让你去作梦让你去摸索让你与我无关

我爱我盼只可惜你不在我爱上的从来只是幻影从不存在
我爱我盼只可惜你不在说好彼此要真心对待说过的话变成了负债
不能向你讨的爱我怎能锁在心上

这一次我要把长发弄乱反正天再冷躲不进你的胸怀
推开了你的手泪流满腮不怕你嘲弄不怕你冷漠此刻只想要耍赖
这一夜最好先说出good bye 戏拖得太久傻女生也会学乖
喝不下这杯酒苦涩来得好快让你去作梦让你去摸索让你与我无关

我爱我盼只可惜你不在我爱上的从来只是幻影从不存在
我爱我盼只可惜你不在说好彼此要真心对待说过的话变成了负债
不能向你讨的爱我怎能锁在心上
说好彼此要真心对待已经证明撞上了冰山不能为你留的爱我最好忘得痛快

我让你走了
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说就算再怎么舍不得你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实怎么会变成这个样子
没有了我真的什么都没有了就象一个废人

回家的路上我哭了眼泪再一次崩溃了无能为力这样走着再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么我还能够做些什么我好希望你会听见因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了Baby

我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说就算再怎么舍不得你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实怎么会变成这个样子
没有了我真的什么都没有了就象一个废人

回家的路上我哭了眼泪再一次崩溃了无能为力这样走着再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么我还能够做些什么我好希望你会听见因为爱你我让你走了

回家的路上我哭了眼泪再一次崩溃了无能为力这样走着再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么我还能够做些什么我好希望你会听见因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了Baby